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Name: Johnny
Location: Tupelo, Mississippi, United States
Birthday: 3/12/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Hmm... I enjoy a lot of things. I'm an exercise major so I guess that'd be one of them. I used to be an art major... so I guess that used to be one of them... actually I enjoy looking at art. Doing it, on the other hand... I'll leave that to you pros. Oh, yah, Halo and Ultimate Frisbee. My two time killers. Ultimate Frisbee you people gotta play.
Expertise: Are we really an expert in anything? And how often do you have to do something to be an expert in it? In that case I'm an expert at blinking. In fact, I can do this trick by doing it with only one eye. I call it... get this... winking. Yah. I think it's gonna go big.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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MSN: LonelyKin@hotmail.com
Member Since:
4/25/2005
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| I've always found Ralph Waldo Emerson to be the epitome of human genius, really. If you know me, likely you know that as well. Though I don't agree with all his ideas upon our Great Creator, I do agree with the gist of them. He has a tendency in his writing to connect to the ideas in my head, the belief in my heart. Also, his writing expands upon those beliefs and ideas, as his own thoughts and ideas are far more profound than mine could possibly deem to even hope to parallel.
Of the present work I'm reading, his Self-Reliance, I am edified and impassioned. In particular, this very excerpt:
"Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron string. Accept the place the divine Providence has found for you; the society of your contemporaries, the connexion of events. Great men have always done so and confided themselves childlike to the genius of their age, betraying their perception that the Eternal was stirring at their heart, working through their hands, predominating in all their being. And we are now men, and must accept in the highest mind the same transcendent destiny; and not pinched in a corner, not cowards fleeing before a revolution, but redeemers and benefactors, pious aspirants to be noble clay plastic under the Almighty effort, let us advance and advance on Chaos and the Dark."
I think I will write. I'm changing my major. I love exercise... it'll always be a part of my life. But I feel as though God gave me a gift. And that I'm doing Him and myself wrong without using it... This morning I'd gone to church with Brittany. That was the message the pastor spoke of. Rejecting the gifts God gave you. I'm scared to start over again. Part of me feels stupid for it. But something else tells me it's right. I just have to believe in it. I have to believe in myself. I have to believe that God does too. | | |
| I feel that I wish I could be fixed. I get so annoyed at people in general. Myself included. I feel like spending this fall break by myself kinda... I miss people that I feel I could connect with. There are so very little I think that about anymore...
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| It's nice to at least be on the path again. I've felt so far away from Christ for so long. There is still so much about this life that I guess I'll never understand. ...I guess I just have to trust him... through all the beauty and all the pain. Maybe this life is wasted by trying to understand the whys so much...
I hope I feel happy again soon.
*Edit*
It's funny... not long after I posted this... I took a nap after doing some reading for American literature... and came to find another blog where I suppose someone was struggling with something similar. In it she said she was comforted by the passage of Psalms 139:1-6. | | |
| I don't think I would've made it without my friends and family. I mean this far in life, true, but what I mean is this semester... Justin's been pretty close company, best friends do that... so have Britt, and Dani, Susan, and Amber... Yeah, horrible sentence structure for a guy who's thinking about being a writer, but I'm writing in vernacular, so cut me a break, cool?
I was so bitter for the longest. I had an agenda on Christians, yeah, my own kind... 'cos I never thought most of them acted thus... it's easy to play the role, I think. Hard to be. And I've been there, been one of "them" the modern pharisee. People get so caught in their own lives... in how they're seen. And then look down on those when others lives aren't up to their par. I mean, none of us live up to God's measuring stick, right? I get frustrated when others don't open their eyes to a world not so very black and white. But I must say, God knows sometimes how to touch those... I see guys like Josh Martin, willing to just be open... not doing for the sake of being seen, but because he has a genuine love for others. That's Christianity. Love.
I hope that this semester, my heart changes... that it warms up... I have love for non-Christians, it's my brothers and sisters that my heart is so hardened towards... so I pray God forgive me... and that he may allow me to love as he loves. | | |
| Recently a friend and I discussed this topic of Christ being a conservative... I hope I didn't frustrate said friend, as I myself wasn't. The whole conversations just made me kind of sad. I don't think he was, though... like I'd told said friend... if anything, he was a revolutionary... he was the embodiment of change, where a conservative usually keeps things the same.
The whole thing with conservatives is that their whole ethical stand is on that of Christianity... and the thing is, this whole nation isn't Christians... we shouldn't force something we believe on someone else... there've been too many view oppressed on people in Christ's name. Don't get me wrong, I'm not some super liberal... I just believe in the rights of minorities, including all races, sexes, and sexual preferences. I kind of think Jesus loved people despite all the bad they were. He just hoped for change. I think that sort of change has to be within ourselves, through choice, not law.
My friend also made a statement about our rights being taken away... but what rights have been taken away? If anything, I think more rights have been given to us... I mean a long time ago, there were segregated restaurants, drinking fountains, etc. And it wasn't the conservative party to make the change there, you know? As far as Bible in schools, I'm a Christian. And as one, I would like for any Christian reading this, to think on how many Christians you know who actually brought their Bibles to school... and as saying prayers over an intercom as once there had been, now imagine yourself in an all Muslim country... how would you feel as a Christian where a prayer to a God not so the same as the one you imagined is said over the intercom... not too comfortable, is it? Don't feel as your rights are so very important, do you? I just believe others should have rights to their views, you know?
I don't think Christ would want to make someone believe what he did... everything he was was an offering... I think, he would be more like, "I offer you a better life than the one you're living, this is your choice to accept it." And the whole thing of him being a conservative... I just don't think he would be. So many people have this view of what they think Christ would be, just as people did once upon a time... once upon a time when they crucified him because he wasn't a leader they'd hoped. I wonder sometimes if they'd crucify him again. Why can't we just accept him as a loving man? Honestly, isn't that what it seemed as though his life conveyed? Why can't the world accept one who just wants to love?
P.S. Jesus loved and was loved by those that weren't exactly practitioners of his faith. He was better accepted by them than by many of those that believed in the God he believed... sometimes I feel that way, too.
P.P.S. Justin Pitner is ridiculous at guitar. I have a great room mate.
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